my 1st day at PTEK

i just woke up after a brainwashing day in PTEK..i was damn tired after school..after the orientation,i went home,felt asleep in the car,walked straight to bed like a drunk person..now its friday,1a.m.got a swimming competition later til sunday..mom forces me to swim.soo i had to but im not in the mood for swimming competition..dont know what will happened later..maybe im gonna swim slow..

i don't really have the mood to swim on saturday,because i have to skip school in order to swim.i've been swimming for like 12years and i've just started schooling..soo swimming or schooling?i was going for schooling..but mom said i have many chances to win on saturday..1st,i massage her that i dont wanna swim..then he starts to talk blablablabla..we discussed this while we were in the car going back home..i tried to fight and fight to win so i can go school but mom starts to "ungkit-ungkit" about whos paying my school fee,after all this time who's being supportive and shit..

so as usual,i lose and i really cried..im not saying im a soft person but 12years of swimming had to stop..and I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHATS THE POINT OF WINNING ANYMORE!!!.not like old times,swimming for me was fun and fun makes me a winner..now i know what swimming means ,it means;

IT'S A DEAD END FUKING SPORTS IN BRUNEI!!!!

the government doesnt offer you anything but going overseas,$30 per day allowance while overseas..yes,u can go any where but when u reach 18..HAHAHA..go kiss your dreams to the seagames,commontwealth,olympics GOODBYE because sports standards in brunei are noobs..no wait..ground ZERO!!..

so,what is the fuking points?the government doesnt even give us scholerships through sports..anyway,as the title post states 'my 1st day at PTEK'..all we do is in the audi for like the whole day lisening to many talks..and the rest..go to http://fex-tripleonezero.blogspot.com/

FUK YOU SWIMMING,GO TO HELL AND GO FUK YOURSELF